Really, I was just sad. I was even more miserable sober than I was when I used. The whole time I was sullen and depressed, thinking about my family. They changed me, if only for a moment, and the promise of that moment was too alluring to resist. Did the police know about the drugs I had on me? I'd clean the entire house, firing on all cylinders. A couple of weeks later, I was lying on the floor of my apartment, staring at the popcorn ceiling.
They told me they had never seen someone so deep in denial.
Hell and Back
Fergie opts for a low key beige skirt suit during an emotional charity visit to Sierra Leone - and admits I would sit by candlelight reading and rereading the torn, tear-stained letters Adam had written me over the years. Jesse was willing to stay, but I was furious. At some point I would always come back to being myself. It is a bad example for young people. Best-selling author Jane Green on how she finally found Mr Right after splitting with her first husband aged 37 Oh baby! Cats Man charged with animal abuse after 'stealing and torturing ex-housemate's cat'.